Monday - handstands
Tuesday - handstands several times throughout the day, held two for 30 sec
Wednesday - Dying Breed warm up, 7 min wo of high knees, 180s, and treadmill sprint, then cool down flow
Thursday - warm up, 7 min with jump lunges, high knees, 180s, cool down
Friday - 40 sec handstand
Saturday - nothing, Halloween, ate candy
Sunday - weight this morning was up another 5, I'm where I was at in May 2019 when I was 4 months post partum. I'm disappointed in and a bit fed up with myself. It is fast Sunday and the beginning of a new month - a good day to repent and begin again. I was thinking of this talk by President Nelson "
We Can Do Better and Be Better" -
"The word for repentance in the Greek New Testament is metanoeo. The prefix meta- means “change.” The suffix -noeo is related to Greek words that mean “mind,” “knowledge,” “spirit,” and “breath.” Thus, when Jesus asks you and me to “repent,” (Luke 13:3, 5) He is inviting us to change our mind, our knowledge, our spirit—even the way we breathe. He is asking us to change the way we love, think, serve, spend our time, treat our wives, teach our children, and even care for our bodies. ... We know what will give us greater access to the powers of heaven. We also know what will hinder our progress—what we need to stop doing to increase our access to the powers of heaven. ...Prayerfully seek to understand what stands in the way of your repentance. Identify what stops you from repenting. And then, change! Repent! All of us can do better and be better than ever before.
There are specific ways in which we can likely improve. One is in the way we treat our bodies. I stand in awe of the miracle of the human body. It is a magnificent creation, essential to our gradual ascent toward our ultimate divine potential. We cannot progress without it. In giving us the gift of a body, God has allowed us to take a vital step toward becoming more like Him.
Satan understands this. He chafes at the fact that his premortal apostasy permanently disqualifies him from this privilege, leaving him in a constant state of jealousy and resentment. Thus many, if not most, of the temptations he puts in our path cause us to abuse our bodies or the bodies of others. Because Satan is miserable without a body, he wants us to be miserable because of ours.
Your body is your personal temple, created to house your eternal spirit. Your care of that temple is important. Now, I ask you... are you more interested in dressing and grooming your body to appeal to the world than to please God? Your answer to this question sends a direct message to Him about your feelings regarding His transcendent gift to you. In this reverence for our bodies, brethren, I think we can do better and be better."
I also listened to this talk by Elder Jörg Klebingat "
Approaching the Throne of God with Confidence" - his point #2: "Take responsibility for your own physical well-being. Your soul consists of your body and spirit (see D&C 88:15). Feeding the spirit while neglecting the body, which is a temple, usually leads to spiritual dissonance and lowered self-esteem. If you are out of shape, if you are uncomfortable in your own body and can do something about it, then do it! Elder Russell M. Nelson has taught that we should “regard our body as a temple of our very own” and that we should “control our diet and exercise for physical fitness” (“We Are Children of God,” Ensign, Nov. 1998, 87; Liahona, Jan. 1999, 103).
President Boyd K. Packer has taught “that our spirit and our body are combined in such a way that our body becomes an instrument of our mind and the foundation of our character” (“The Instrument of Your Mind and the Foundation of Your Character” [Church Educational System fireside, Feb. 2, 2003], 2; speeches.byu.edu). Therefore, please use good judgment in what and especially how much you eat, and regularly give your body the exercise it needs and deserves. If you are physically able, decide today to be the master of your own house and begin a regular, long-term exercise program, suited to your abilities, combined with a healthier diet. Spiritual confidence increases when your spirit, with the help of the Savior, is truly in charge of your natural man or woman."
Last night trick or treating, I saw some neighbors who are in shape and that impress me, and I realized what I was wearing and how my belly looked and I quickly became uncomfortable in my own body. I can do something about it. I will do something about it. I've kinda lost my desire lately, but I will rekindle my desire and commitment. I am fasting today for the Lord to help me. I prayed and asked for him to help me know, but I do know what to do, mostly, I just need help to do what I know I should do.