Dec 5 - 10

Monday - bouldering after taking Lily, I ripped off one of my callouses. doh, kept a bandaid on it all day

Tuesday - bouldering with Lily before jazz band, I didn't do too much cause of my callous, but still did some carefully, finished a purple overhang with good jugs that I wasn't able to do Saturday. It was still good. Superglued my callous at home.

Wednesday - bouldering with Corey, he's got a really long reach, I'm short, but it's fun. Callouses are doing great.

Thursday - shoveled snow

Friday - bouldering with Wes, he's good! He did a few V2s, wow! I got higher on the yellow V1, almost made it, I was also able to do the two other purples that were too hard for me last week, and I was able to do them even though my arms were already tired. My palms did great today.

Also, I've experience a new level of freedom over the past two weeks - the real freedom of having a "naturally thin" brain. It has been thanks to life coaching taught to me by Laura Dixon, via her podcast and her program. My body isn't there yet, but it will be following soon enough. I'm excited to lose 5 more pounds, but my brain is totally at ease and proud of and ok with where I am right now! My brain is calm and I feel certain and it's really a new free feeling that I'm loving. I am pretty sure I'm going to lose 20 more pounds (unless the climbing make me put on a lot of muscle weight!) My baby Katharine is 6 months old, and I'm lower now that I was over 2.5 years after Peter was born. Actually, I barely got to 140 when we got family pictures taken in 2020, but then it went back up after the photos cause my brain wasn't there. I'm at that weight now and K is only 6 months old! I am loving it. Most of the mental freedom really kicked in/solidified over Thanksgiving (the "Thin Holidays" podcast was great!) and has been more and more constant since then. I have felt freedom from my food brain and from the pressure to exercise. Like, years ago I used to be sad if I was up at Park City and didn't get in a workout, but now I don't even think about it! I loved biking up there in the summer, obviously, but the pressure to exercise to lose weight is a think of the past. Now I exercise for fun and I enjoy doing things that are interesting (like bouldering) or that feel good (like stretching or handstands) and I'll do them but then move on with my day! I don't worry if I didn't sweat enough or lift enough, it's become a new paradigm and I feel free. Also I feel free from food. I have become ok with hunger, and I'm busy doing other things, and so unless my hunger cues come, I am just not thinking about food. Even this morning, I went into the kitchen to get the kids some breakfast, and part of me thought "let's eat" but I hadn't been thinking of eating at all upstairs before I came down, so I knew I wasn't really hungry yet, so I moved on - got them food, then went back to my projects. 

I thought this was funny - my little sister sent it to me. I used to be and feel this way! (Searching for comfort in food)